bloggercaps: November 2004

a worrywart is born

i've always known that i was an insomniac. even my mom regales me with stories about me being a night owl when i was but a little girl.

however, my insomnia has been thrown to a completely new level. it's 0330AM. an hour ago, i was sleepy, so i tried to sleep. i can't sleep without thinking about something, like visualizing in my head what i'll do the next day. but lately, these visual "to do" lists have becoming more and more stressful. today, i kept thinking about my thesis, and how there is less than 3 weeks to go. i mentally scheduled the things i have to do. in the end, i had to get up and put it in a calendar (which, by the way, i slaved over making: you should see it, it's beautiful).

i always knew i had an organized streak in me, but this is ridiculous. this weekend alone, to simply be able to work on my thesis, i rearranged my whole room so that i don't have to work facing the wall. and then, i worked on this calendar made out of cartolina and letter envelopes (my dad said it was impractical for me to waste my time making it).

the thing is, i didn't feel that i could work if i didn't do these things. organized streaks be damned. i never knew i could be this anal.

and now, i'm up, and i can't sleep. i have around 2 hours before i have to get up!

well, hell. if i'm going to lose some sleep, better lose it for a good cause. if i don't fall asleep in the next two hours, i'll be working my ass off either for sir jason moss or for sir rofel brion.

whoopee.

goodbye, blue xmas

i just found out this afternoon that i will not be able to attend blue christmas because it will be on the same day as the AXN race. what kind of christmas event is held in november, anyway?! bleah. i'm sourgraping.

and it's not like i don't have my hands full, as i'm STILL working on my thesis. can i just fast forward to january??? phu-leeeaze?

i'm hungry. at least i can eat anything now, my tummy's behaving wonderfully. yay!

baby steps

ok, kids, it's for real. i'm marshaling the AXN Challenge on the 27th of November. No backing out, it's going to happen. I figured i don't have that much experience yet to go straight to joining adventure races (since i don't even have a sport). And since i missed the adventure racing workshop, i'm doing this instead.

it's going to be hard work, but i hope it will at least be interesting. i got an email in one of my yahoogroups about these two guys looking for a girl teammate and they're from ateneo. i got the email yesterday; the last day of the registration period was two days ago. huh. wonderful. it would've been nice to actually be part of the race instead of being at just one checkpoint. bleah.

at the initial orientation, they told us that it would be around 12 hours of hard work, aside from getting our food late. and all we get in return will be one AXN t-shirt. so we'd better make sure daw that we know what we're in for. the speaker also discouraged people from volunteering just because they think it's fun. uh oh. haha. just kidding. i know it'll be hard, but i think i'm up for it. but for a job where all you get is a t-shirt, surprisingly, there's a long waiting list.

one of the coordinators called me up to confirm that i've been accepted as a marshal, and at one point, he asked me if i went with my friends. when i said "no," you know what he said??? he said "talaga? ang tapang mo ah." oh mommy. i don't know if i'll be flattered or scared shitless. that orientientation was terrifying enough. it was a room full of toned and muscled people with sun-darkened skins, who you just know can probably take any challenge (physical) that you can throw at them.

implications

my parents, because of their generous and loving hearts, have changed the date of gaby's christening to 28 November. please tell me who can make it and who want to be ninongs and ninangs (because i'm inviting all shungaks).

amoebiasis strikes again

after a week of tummy aches... i decide it's time to go to the doctor. after some questions and examinations, she tells me i have amoebiasis... again.

agh. i don't think i'll be confined again, but it's really, really uncomfortable!!! the whole week!!!

***

i read taskeen's prayer again. wow. yun lang. read it.

***

bleah. gus' class is messing me up. which is good. like taskeen's prayer said, i need some disturbing. it's good to reevaluate where i stand time and time again. somehow, it's never boring.

bah! i give up

ok. i'm reverting to a blogger template. simply because the anemic site really isn't working, and i don't exactly have time to fix myself a nice blog. dang, it really sucks.

hmm... i'll have time around february, i guess. for now, i have to be happy with this. i HAVE to. haha.

*yawn*

my early morning skeds are really killing me.